- The day after my first ever blog post (on December 17), I weighed 184.
- I declared at that time that I would wait until January 9 to weigh myself again.
- Against my own better judgment and own proclamations, I weighed myself on December 24…182 lbs.
- I had lost 2 lbs in a little over a week AND during the holidays!
- Feeling a bit smug, I was mentally back on track to wait until January 9 to weigh again.
This morning, as I was getting dressed for work, I chose a pair of pants which I was wearing quite comfortably in early November (pre-vacation). I presumed since I’ve been on my eating program pretty religiously since Christmas (even through New Year's) that they would fit me fine. I put them on but…uh oh…they were quite tight. My panty line was quite prominent...lovely.
I had taken them to the cleaners since last wearing them, so my first thought, honest to God, was that the cleaners had shrunk them. Damn cleaners! I hate, hate, hate wearing tight pants, so I went and got a different pair out of the closet. I had worn this particular pair on Monday (they’re one of my always faithful standby black pair that I can wear with many different tops) and they were fairly comfortable then…2 days ago. Of course, I’m thinking, they will be fine. Uh oh…again. These were tight too. I couldn’t believe it.
I had to know the truth. I took the pants back off and jumped on the scale…184. I’d gained back the 2 lbs I’d lost, in spite of my continued good efforts over the past 2 weeks.
By now, it was too late to change again, plus I didn’t really have anything else to wear, so I put the black pair back on…if these weren’t comfortable, nothing else would be either. So I am wearing this pair with the top button unbuttoned, under a baggy sweater.
What the HELL happened???
In retrospect, the logical explanation is probably that for dinner last night, hubby fixed a shrimp and veggie stir fry with wheat noodles. It was delicious, but as a rule we don’t eat much wheat only because we avoid things like white bread and pastries. Maybe I’m sensitive to wheat and never realized it before? Also, there was soy sauce in the sauce…too much salt?
Was it just the wheat and soy sauce? Is it because I haven’t been working out much because of being sick? Or is my post-menopausal body betraying me? Maybe I won’t ever be able to lose weight again. Maybe I'll just keep gaining weight in spite of whatever I do. I’m sitting here trying not to get crazy over this and do something stupid, like get back into self-destructive habits (bulimia, starvation…). I know what I should do… drink a ton of water today, eat my normal food, go to the gym, and weigh in this Friday as planned. But...what if... ?
NO IFs!! You KNOW what to do now DO IT! Make sure your workouts are making you sweat, no pansy stuff. You're going to KICK it because...We're team Angie!
ReplyDeleteThere are so many reasons why we don't lose or gain just stay on course and your body will have to give up the fight of retaining water/fat all the stuff you want to get rid of.
My bet is the wheat and sodium from the soy sauce. I am in perimenopause myself and wheat anything seems to cling to me like a desperate toddler with separation anxiety. Do NOT give up ! Try going a week with avoiding wheat things and watching the sodium as well as your other efforts, and you should see progress.
ReplyDeleteGo team Angie !!!
You're right!!! I need to get off my butt and get to the gym today! And I'm drinking tons of H2O today. Go A-TEAM! ...now please excuse me while I run to the bathroom to pee.
ReplyDeletethe human body reacts to variation strangely. If it is sodium or something like that the scale will catch up. Give it time and keep sweating and eating healthy!!!!!!
ReplyDeletebe careful when you weigh....make sure it is the same time every morning, buck naked. make sure your scale is properly calibrated. i check mine regularly with a 15 lb weight. i also make sure the battery is changed every year.
ReplyDeleteOur scale is one of those medical ones like in the doctor's office so it's pretty accurate. I just knew there was something "up" (i.e. my weight!) when the pants I wore on Monday didn't fit today. This scale doesn't lie!
ReplyDeleteAnyway, thanks everyone, for your advice and support. I ate my allotted food, I've been drinking my water throughout the day, and I walked on the treadmill for an hour. I don't feel so freaked out anymore.
I struggle with keeping sane with my weigh ins. I have a terrible problem with self destruction and have based my self worth for years on the scale. I chose NOT to weigh this week because I have had the shit flu and I am swollen and bloated from drinking all of the sodium laden chicken broth and saltines. It is okay to avoid the scale if you are feeling insane about it. Just the other day I moved it to the back of the basement next to the cat litter boxes where I go only for a last resort.
ReplyDeletePart of changing food relationships is changing how we see ourselves in relation to our weight. You are doing so much good. I encourage you to keep going.