Who's delusional?

I'm sitting here watching American Idol. It's a trip listening to some of these "singers..." (I'm talking about the truly awful ones, not the good ones or even the sort of mediocre ones). Are these people so delusional that they actually think they can sing? I'm watching people who appear to truly believe they are "all that," and yet it's so obvious to everyone else they're not (all that). Then they are over-the-top shocked and offended when the judges tell them that they are not good singers.

I think delusions can work both ways. I think many of us with weight issues have the opposite problem. We, in fact, may be "all that" yet we still don't think we are worthy of admiration, love, or kindness. We are talented, or funny, or smart, or hard working. Yet we put ourselves down. We are afraid to show others what we are good at for fear of rejection, or ridicule, or that we'll be accused of being arrogant...either that, or we just don't trust how good we are. We're afraid that those people who do admire us will find out that we don't deserve their admiration...that we're big frauds, with nothing behind the facade. We hide behind various layers of fat or baggy clothing, or we withdraw from our family and friends. We might allow others to treat us poorly, or we stay in abusive relationships. Or we try to fade into the background because we're afraid of...what?

I want to finally be rid of my self-hatred. I want to be comfortable with myself. I want to stop obsessing about my weight, which I currently do to the detriment of the other good things in my life. My weight is only one tiny part of who I am, and I've been making it a much bigger issue than it deserves to be.