After our last visitors left on Monday, I had all sorts of good intentions of getting right back into healthy eating and working out. After all, the scale showed I had gained 4 lbs in the last 2 weeks. (4 lbs...Eeeek!) Unfortunately, work was so busy I didn't have time to workout, and although I took my lunch to work each day, I found myself craving and eating a lot more junk than I normally indulge in. Yesterday…I met my goal of working out, but food was still a bit out there. I drove to a local trail park and walked for 3 miles, but then I needed to stop at the drug store. I was really hungry, so while I was there, I ended up buying 2 candy bars, 200 calories each, and scarfing them down in the car on the way home. That sounds counterproductive, doesn't it? Work out then go eat crap. lol. I really shouldn't let myself get so hungry, because that's when I make crazy choices. Then we went to a local Chinese buffet for dinner. I didn't do too badly in what I chose, and I ate small portions, but there's always a lot of sodium in that food. Finally...last night, I discovered a stash of caramels that I had completely forgotten about in the pantry...they'd been there since Christmas so they were really chewy. Still, I ate all 5 of those. Bleh.
So, today has been a lot better, especially in the food category. I've been really trying to drink a lot of water too.
We were invited over to some friends' house for dinner tonight, but both hub and I wanted to give ourselves some time to "recover" (meaning a while to get back on track). Our friends both just lost a bunch of weight on Weight Watchers, so they completely understood. So we're going next weekend instead.
I'm not going to weigh myself again until Friday. I'm hoping to be back down to my new "normal" by then. When I say new "normal" I mean that's the weight I've been hovering around for the last 2 months, which is 162. (My new "danger number" is 165, when I go over that, I kind of freak out. And I saw 166 on Monday.)
We're lucky to be having a gorgeous day, sun shining and about 70 degrees. I need to do a few things outside, so I'll see you later.
P.S. In retrospect, I feel kind of guilty about my last post about our visitor Ray. I was talking to a friend about it, and I've come to the conclusion that he didn't mean to upset me. I think he is just old and nervous and worried about everything.
you're likely right about what you said about Ray being nervous and old - but it's ok to be angry about it also. You need to let yourself acknowledge your feelings so that you don't eat them!
ReplyDeleteSmart of you to put off the get together till next week. Really - what a great idea! You'll be back to your new normal in no time because you've given yourself time to recover. And good thinking about staying away from the scale. Don't want to slip back into self destructive habits.
Grace, I'm a lot shorter than you (5'6") and 166 is also my freak out number. I hit 167 before I left for Fairbanks yesterday and was totally freaked out. Trying my best to be in control here, but it's not easy!
ReplyDeleteAbout Geneen Roth's new book, well, actually after reading three chapters I decided she's onto something. :) I signed up and paid for her seminar and will be going on it Oct. 8-9 in Seattle. I can't wait to meet you there! Plus I can hardly wait for the seminar. It doesn't really sounds fun, but sounds like hard work and a little scary. Not "bolting from myself" which I'm famous for doing. It would be nice to meet you and know someone there. Although I know it'll be good for me, still a little scary. :) Email me - ww.lady@gmail.com.
I think we all learn weight loss/maintenance in a different way. I try not to freak about fluctuations but instead remind myself that within a couple of weeks of my regular routine, I'll be back where I wish to be. I think you have adopted the right attitude - it's developing the "knowing that you'll get back" that's the hard part. I think part of that is confidence in ourselves, after years of being number-driven.
ReplyDeleteI cannot wait to hear about the Roth seminar. You guys will have to tell us all about it.