Thank God it's Thursday...

I haven’t been very motivated to post anything this last week. I feel as if I’ve just been working long days and then going home tired.

Early in the week, I was asked by a colleague to write a professional opinion on a Code interpretation question. I was flattered to be asked, but knowing my opinion would be reviewed by several other people in my field, I focused on it to the detriment of other things I needed to get done at work.

When I finally submitted my opinion for review, no one could find a flaw in my research, presentation of fact, or conclusion. I’m sure I provided way more information than they expected (or maybe even wanted). One reviewer described me as “the researcher’s researcher.” While that sounds good and it’s nice to get compliments, I’m such a perfectionist that taking on projects like this can be very stressful. I’m always so afraid I might make a tiny mistake or miss something, however miniscule…heaven forbid!

The bottom line is I went a bit overboard (okay, a LOT overboard)…and I’m not sure whether I was trying to impress the others or whether I was just very concerned that I would look stupid if I made any kind of a mistake. Maybe it was a bit of both, but I think it was mostly the latter. Logic tells me that there’s got to be a happy medium between "absolutely perfect" and "completely stupid"…right? I just don’t know how to find that balance. I have been discussing my perfectionist tendencies with Dr. D, but it is hard to imagine that I will ever be able to relax when I’m involved in this type of thing.

I am happy to say that my food has been VERY good this week, but I've only worked out once this week so far, on Wednesday, so I'm a bit disappointed in that. I was just too busy and then too tired to do much. The weather promises to be beautiful tomorrow, so I’m looking forward to a nice walk with B.

I’m really tired now, so I’m off to bed. Take care, everyone.