After not posting for quite a while, I wish this could be an uplifting or happy post. The fact is I find myself really emotional lately. I seem to cry at the drop of a hat. I walk around with a constant lump in my throat. I don't think I'm depressed, but everything seems to set me off.
- The heart wrenching photo of the faithful dog at the Navy Seal's funeral.
- The hungry kitten video that Oct posted on her blog. I thought it was cute until I made the mistake of watching it on Youtube and saw the back story.
- The beautiful opera singer on America's Got Talent. Her singing is so amazing, I just started crying. (So this is not really a "sad" moment, just emotional.)
- Talking to Dr D about my grandmother. I don't understand how, 40 years after her death, I can't talk about her without crying. I still miss her so much.
- Finally (and I realize this is the most pathetic thing to be sad about)...My mother telling me that I need a facelift. A few days ago, I drove all the way to Tacoma to go with her to the doctor. Afterwards, we're just standing in the parking lot talking about a few things. and all of a sudden she starts to pick apart my face. She points out my sagging jowls and drooping eyelids. When she's done pointing out my facial defects, I'm surprised that other people in the parking lot didn't run away screaming because I'm apparently pretty scary looking. On my way home, alone in my car, I just cried for 20 minutes.
Well, I'm sorry this long overdue post is nothing but a litany of what's making me sad these days. I'll try to write a more positive post soon.
Just hugs, Grace. I've got no words of wisdom (other than your mother is an asshat).
ReplyDeleteThe Navy Seal's dog at funeral nearly brought me to tears too. The hungry kitty seems to have a happy ending "After 5 months a nice family adopted her :)".
ReplyDelete*big hugs* You cry because you are tender-hearted just like me. I've found that when I'm mistreated it hurts longer than for some people. I don't know why either but I'd rather have someone like you as a friend than one of the more stone-hearted people in the world.
Awww. Sweetie. Allow yourself to be sad, then pick yourself up and do something that lifts your spirits, and then do something else, and something else. Pretty soon the sadness will be less and will be overshadowed by the caring you are giving yourself. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteHugs, Grace. I am sad for you that your mother is so toxic towards you. Maybe you should just stop seeing her?
ReplyDeleteHow unkind! Next time one of those caustic moments comes up, stop her in the middle of a sentence and tell her she is being unkind and to knock it off. Holding up a hand with palm toward someone will usually stop them quickly too. If she continues, just talk loudly over the top of whatever she is saying. This almost always works for me.
ReplyDeleteSorry you are going through some difficult times now.
A big hug from me, too. Sorry you are having emotional stuff. Moms still see us as theirs to shape. Don't give her opinions any power. Ha, easy for me to say, my mom does the same thing to me but instead of it hurting me, it just makes me angry.
ReplyDeleteTake care and know this will pass.
Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteWhen my younger son was born, I sent my mom, who lived in a nursing home six hours drive from where we lived, a picture of him at 2 or 3 days old. Her reaction devastated me. She told me straight out that he was ugly. That's just not something a mother normally says and I realized that my mother was starting to suffer from dementia.
I don't know how old your mom is or what her mental state is, and it really doesn't matter. It's how hurt you felt...and justly so!
I hope you have lots of friends around you to give you the love you deserve.
P.S. My boy is now 16 and is a real hit with all the girls. He's cute as a button!
Has she had a facelift? If not why not?
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