I was going to spend some time on the treadmill this morning, but it's in the rec room which also functions as an office for hub's bookkeeper Monday through Friday. Some times it doesn't bother me to use it while she's there, but today I wasn't in the mood to exercise "in front of" anyone. Not that she even cares or notices, it's just the way I'm feeling today. I'm thinking I'll wait until she leaves about 4, and work out then.
In the meantime, I'm trying not to feel guilty for just sitting on my butt and watching TV. I just had 2 Orowheat sandwich thins, toasted, with butter and peanut butter. Damn, I love peanut butter. I had one but it wasn't enough, so I had another. Probably about 600 calories. Along with coffee, I'm probably at about 800 calories. And it's noon, so I guess that's okay.
I had a weird dream last night. I gave myself liposuction. I got a syringe from somewhere and actually sucked the fat out of my love handles. I remembering being quite pleased with myself. Then I woke up. I don't know what that was all about, unless it was from watching a show on Dr Oz about plastic surgery a few days ago.
I do have a very strong dislike of my love handles. No matter how much I work on my self-esteem, and even though truthfully I am getting more "okay" with the rest of my body, I do focus on the love handles. I often find myself grabbing the one on the right as I am driving or getting dressed or just walking around the house. Yeah, weird, I know. I sometimes think if I wish hard enough, they will go away. They've never been too responsive to exercise, and while sometimes they get smaller, they are always there no matter what I weigh. Genetics, I guess. They make me very self conscious, and I would get lipo if I had a few extra thousand dollars to throw around. Except my hub would have a fit, he knows that a lot of my body issues are totally in my head. He says I need to work on what's in my head more than my body. Yes, I know he's right.
Well, even if I don't work out right now, I can at least do something productive. I think I'll go do some laundry.
I hope everyone has a great weekend!
Please put in your order for good weather in March! I wouldn't feel comfortable treadmilling in front of the bookkeeper, either.
ReplyDeleteDarn, you reminded me of laundry. I need to throw in a load of clothes, myself. Have a great weekend.
I think the rain is such a depressant. I love the Northwest, but sometimes.....
ReplyDeleteMy head also needs the most work. If I can get my brain working right, I think the rest will follow.
Have a good weekend. Jo
It's the second day of solid rain here too. A good thing, I keep telling myself, for the garden and my water tank. But you can have too much of a good thing.
ReplyDeleteBeing productive is a good thing!
ReplyDeleteYour husband is a wise man. Your so-called love handles were invented by the fashion industry. If you really want to lose them, you might succeed by resorting to anorexia. (I'm joking.) Then again, you might not. It's your body type. That's all. Sadly, in our society, there's only one acceptable body type, which almost no one has. And even the women who have it need to be airbrushed to make sure everything's "perfect".
ReplyDeleteSounds like you need to learn to love your love handles - some things we just cannot change, so we need to accept them....
ReplyDeleteHope you have a great day!