Still around

Well, here I am.  A few days before my 65th birthday.  It’s a cold but sunny and truly beautiful President’s Day.  Being a government employee, I have the day off.  Friday, I started to feel a cold coming on, so I spent the weekend a bit under the weather.   But I attacked it hard right away with Zicam and yesterday I started to feel better.

So far today I’ve taken the girl dogs to the park.  They just got haircuts last week, so they did have to wear their warm jackets.

I just realized I still refer to them as the girl dogs...vs when I had 3 and one was a boy

My dear husband gave me a leaf blower for Christmas (what a romantic fellow) so I’ve also blown off all the decks of the debris that fell yesterday in a windstorm.  And it’s not even 10 am yet.  

I feel as if I am in a good place emotionally.  Sometimes I still get very sad about Buster, but the grief does seem to be easing a bit.  At least I’m not crying over him every day anymore.  I’ve gotten rid of almost all his stuff, except for his bed and a few favorite toys which I’ve put next to the bed in our bedroom.  I imagine him sleeping there still, and occasionally one of the other dogs will get in it, so that gives me comfort.  Weird, I know, to be so attached to a dog.  But he’ll be forever in my heart. 

My startup disk on my laptop told me it was getting very full, so while being sick this weekend, I decided to cull out some stuff, starting with Photos…of course, the majority of everything was photos and videos of B.  Videos take up a lot of space and a lot were “almost” duplicates, so I decided to just keep the most special ones.

As I was going through them one by one, I came across one from about 3 years ago where I was recording B and me playing with a puppet.  My husband in the background says loudly “Don’t you have enough pictures of that dog???” 

For some reason, watching that video with commentary from my husband made me laugh so hard I cried.  Yes, I was a crazy dog mom and I probably did have enough pictures, evidenced by the fact that I'm now needing to delete some in order for my computer to function properly.  But in retrospect...it's a bittersweet memory.

Weight wise, I’m doing well.  Not up or down…just “THERE.”  I don’t even think about what I weigh most of the time, because it doesn’t matter, as long as my clothes continue to fit fine.

I’m working out a lot and apparently I’m very fit because the company who makes the heart rate monitor I wear just sent me an email that they were upping my max heart rate, based on the fact that while working out, I often get my heart rate up past the previous theoretical max.  (The “normal” max for a woman my age is 155, so my level of fitness is quite high.)

My trainer and I have been together for 3 years, so he knows how far I've come.  He is pretty proud of me and my progress and I think I’m one of his favorite clients because I do push myself so hard during our sessions.

Anyway, sorry for my long absences.  I've decided to keep blogging more regularly, even if no one reads, it's a good way for me to document my own emotional progress.

Take care, everyone.