Sorry I haven't posted lately nor visited anyone else's blog. I don't seem to have the energy to be encouraging, sympathetic, empathetic, or even nice these days.
Not sure what's going on with me. My food, which had been so good recently, has deteriorated. Last night I actually bought and ate a whole package of Twizzlers. I haven't done that since Baltimore! I told hub last night that whenever I am at the trial, it seems to set me off later. And I feel like my meds aren't working very well right now. Maybe it's just stress, anger, whatever it is, I seem to want to stuff myself whenever the day is over.
It makes me angry (furious is more like it) to see someone smile and laugh, someone who should never be allowed to smile or laugh again. It makes me angry to see so much energy and expense wasted on someone. (Yeah, I know…innocent until proven guilty...that doesn't make it any easier.) It makes me sad to see the pain on the faces of the family of the victims when certain testimony is given. Some of the details that had faded in my mind are back with a vengeance, and it makes me heartbroken and horrified and sick to my stomach.
I feel like I want to vent, but I have to be careful, so I deleted the link I included a few weeks ago. Not that anyone who reads this blog would do anything with it or about it. I just get paranoid about what could happen.
Sorry to be so cryptic. Life is complicated right now. Hug your family, tell them how much you love them. You never know for sure if you will see them again.
Graciela, I'm sorry you are going through this. I did follow the link you had a while back and got the gist, but not your connection to the incident. Horrific, for sure. And tough to process. Be gentle with yourself as you endure this.
ReplyDeletePeace.
I second Roxie. I am sorry you are going through such a tough time. Be good to yourself. You will get through.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what a twizzler is, and I don't think I want to know!
Take care of yourself, Graciela. And don't let this tough patch undo all the good work you've put in up to now...
ReplyDeletepoor you.
ReplyDeleteSomehow I missed the link so I don't know your connection. I do understand about stress eating. Don't be so hard on yourself, this will pass and you will get back on track.
ReplyDeleteAgain, not much can be said, really. Sending more hugs.
ReplyDeleteTake care.