Just a quick post…I'm taking part of the day off from work and going to see my mom today. She needs help putting up her little Christmas tree, plus it’s her birthday.
She called last night but I didn’t hear the phone ring. So she left me a voicemail which I didn’t listen to until it was too late to call her back last night. All I can say is…sometimes her tone of voice just pushes all my buttons and drives me bonkers. The tone is a combo of “martyr” and “helpless” with a dash of guilt thrown in for good measure.
I actually found myself yelling profane things at the voicemail. LOL!
Thank goodness I’ve been working so hard on childhood issues or I’d already be bingeing this morning. As it is, I’m doing okay. I’ll let you know how it goes…if I can get through this week, including Christmas, without having a meltdown (like I have in years past), then I think we can safely say that I’ve made progress in the mental health department.
It breaks my heart to think that time spent with your mother, or even just the thought of the time spent with your mother makes you feel this way. Just so wrong for so many reasons.
ReplyDeleteGlad to know you're not bingeing. That is huge success for you!!!!!
Big hugs!!!!
I know just how you feel. My mom can push my buttons with just a look, lol. Stay strong and know that you HAVE made mucho progress this year. Repeat that statement, over and over.
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas, Graciela!