1. Morning weigh in…177. No change at all. My initial thought was to be disappointed, but on second thought, I realize I should be glad. After last weekend with all the partying, drinking, and eating, no gain is a good thing! It means I got right back on my program (which I did) and didn’t let 2 days of semi-off-program set me up for blowing it the rest of the week.
And it really gives me impetus to keep going, since this week I don’t have any distractions. So I should have a good weigh in next week.
2. After my last post, I got the name of a therapist who specializes in BDD and eating disorders and those types of things. I’m going to call today and make an appointment for next week. There aren’t that many therapists who specialize in this specific issue, so I figure it must be a sign that her office is literally 5 minutes from my office.
At first I was feeling bad (as usual) about myself, realizing how screwed up I am in the head. Then I got to thinking…how exciting! To actually have the opportunity to get some peace in my thinking after 55 years. What a blessing!
3. Blogging is so helpful for many reasons...
Besides being a compulsive eater, I have always tended to be a compulsive spender, not on big ticket items but on a lot of small things. I've never really sweated it, because I always justified it that I have a good job and can afford it. I love to go to Fred Meyer and Target and Tuesday Morning. I’ll spend $20 here, $50 there, several times a month…and it really does add up. Seriously, when I look at what I tend to buy, it’s usually unnecessary stuff, like makeup, trinkets, clothes that are “on sale” that I will never wear, I just buy them because they are on sale… half the time I don’t even know what I’m buying.
So, truthfully, much of what I purchase is just a waste of money. I wouldn’t even think about it until I’d get the credit card bill and then I’d wonder…what the heck did I buy that time? Since I’ve been blogging, I’ve felt much less need to spend on frivolous things, and my bank account is already showing it in a positive way.
Anyway, I’m looking forward to a good week. I’m going to e-mail my WI results to BLBE and then Buster & I are going for a good long walk. Have a great Friday, my friends!
Blogging is very helpful on so many levels- both writing and reading. It can really give you a sense of companionship in something that you have for so long felt like you might have been the only one who wrestles with odd thoughts and conflicts.
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Have a great walk !
I'm proud of you for checking yourself on you reaction to maintaining this week. It shows how far you have come. Congrat of finding a therapist so close by. I hope you post about your progress. I have the same binge tendencies you have but didn't know there was anyone to go to. I think that is why I love to blog. It is a comfort to me (maybe it shouldn't be) to know other people have the same struggles I have. Have a great weekend.
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