Looking forward to the weekend

Has our summer gone away already?

Can’t there be a happy medium around here? 102 degrees one week ago; today the high is something like 72 with overcast skies. Oh well, we can’t do anything about the weather except complain. It’s never exactly what you want it to be. At least I’ll be able to work outside tomorrow.

So, I’m trying to figure out something. I was so down when I posted last Monday, then all of a sudden I’m okay. I’ve been feeling good and upbeat ever since Tuesday. I’m even not currently hating my body so much. I’ve been enjoying working out at Curves, and today I’m taking B for our big walk (since it’s not too hot). My food has been really good since Tuesday, and without any effort. I feel happy and peaceful inside.

I just wish I could figure out how to keep this mindset…I think hormones play a part in whether I'm up or down, but I don't think that's the whole story. Hmmmm. Wonder wonder wonder...

On a completely different subject, I’ve been thinking about selling some stuff on eBay.

I tend to be a compulsive spender (yes I’m compulsive about MANY things, not just my weight) and I accumulate clothing that I wear once (or even never) then I don’t like it anymore or it doesn’t fit quite right. Oh, I'm not to the extent that I need to be on Dr Phil, but I do spend more than I should or need to.

Anyway, I absolutely love eBay and have bought many items there; and I've sold a few things too. But in order to sell anything, I used to have to have hub take the pictures since I didn’t know how to work the camera. Now that I have my own camera (on my Blackberry) I can take pictures of everything myself! So this seems like a positive way to spend some time, make some extra money, and it will be fun too.

Well, I need to get ready for our walk. Have a great weekend!

What a difference a day makes...

~High temp today…77 degrees. Whew!

~Got a good night’s sleep last night.

~Slathered my arms and chest with moisturizer this morning…don’t know if it really did any good, but I think moist crepey skin probably looks better than dry crepey skin…*Lol*

~Wore a cute new shirt and white jeans to work (So much the better that the shirt was $4 and the jeans $10…found both on the 80% off rack at Kohls last night. YAY!).

~Stayed on program food wise.

~In a few minutes, I’m going to work out at Curves…the first time in several weeks (although I’ve walked a little on the weekends, I haven’t done much else).

~Tomorrow, I get to put in new aligners. I’ll probably be a bit uncomfortable for a few days again…every time you put in a new set, it takes a while for the teeth to adjust…but it’s exciting to have the first 2 weeks out of the way. Only 44 more weeks to go!

Thanks to everyone who made positive suggestions on yesterday’s post. Your comments helped me pull myself out of the dumps.

I love you guys!

Funky time

I haven’t been motivated to post lately, or even to read other's blogs. I’m in a bit of a funk, probably due to the weather, but also I just can’t seem to shake an old feeling that has popped up more and more frequently lately…that I’m old, fat and ugly. Rather than reach out...by posting or commenting or talking to others or doing something positive...I tend to isolate and ruminate. I wouldn’t describe it as feeling sorry for myself…it’s more like I’m just feeling kind of bummed out.

Part of it may be the hot weather, the necessity of wearing skimpier clothing and bathing suits which accentuate the negative parts of my body…love handles and flabby belly, crepey skin on my arms and chest. Rather than be seen by anyone, including myself, I’d rather hide and not think about it. It doesn’t really affect my day to day life, because I put on a happy face for others to see…but inside I’m feeling kind of down.

I need to do something positive to get myself out of this rut. Seeing Dr D helps, but due to financial reasons, I’ve had to reduce my sessions with her down to every other week. I wish I could get motivated to work out more, but right now I’m just thinking…what’s the use? I’m just going to get older and more flabby and droopy no matter what I do…unless it’s something surgical and I don’t want to do that because it scares me. I think what I need to do is…just get over myself. But that’s easier said than done. Just telling myself to perk up doesn’t seem to be working.

Anybody have any words of wisdom on how to pull oneself out of an emotional funk? I’d love to hear actual examples or stories of what works for you.