MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Heavy snow is falling again. I was supposed to work this morning but I got part way and decided to turn back. The roads were extremely slippery and there were cars spun out all over. I did stop at the store and pick a few last minute items that I needed for tomorrow…cash for my niece’s gift (she’s in her 20’s and cash is always popular), cards, champagne, etc. Now I’m home watching the movie “The Star Chamber” from 1983 on TV…I really like Michael Douglas. He’s still very handsome today, but boy, was he a HUNK back then!!

I’ve already talked to my brother about the possibility of us postponing the Christmas celebration to a day when the weather has improved. The forecast includes freezing rain tonight and tomorrow. To be truthful, I’d rather get it over with, but practicality may win out over tradition.

Since I started this blog, I’ve felt more of an overall sense of peace, which is amazing considering it’s the holidays. Maybe blogging is helping me to be more aware of my self-destructive activities. Yes, I did go a bit berserk after visiting my mom; but after I wrote about it, my binge eating didn’t last past that one day. A group of us went to dim sum yesterday and normally I eat way too much. It’s one of those situations where everyone eats everything that’s on the table so no one can really keep track of how much any other person is eating...as if anyone other than myself really notices or cares. It usually makes me feel like I've got the cover I need to eat... Eat...EAT with other people around. This time, I felt very much in control. I didn’t eat too much and I didn’t even crave any of the desserts, although the sweet buns are usually my absolute favorite. And it wasn’t a “will power/white knuckle” sense of control, rather something quiet inside that said, “Okay, you’re full, you’ve had enough.” I’m going to say a prayer that this keeps up. I may actually make it through the holidays with my sanity intact and without gaining a lot of weight.

I want to thank you all for encouraging me in this new endeavor of blogging. I wish everyone the most joyous Christmas. ~ Love, Graciela