I've never thought of my ED Voice as anything concrete or specific. It's never had a real face, it's 
always just been a disembodied voice. It just pops up, sometimes when I least expect it. I'm not always sure what triggers it. Like yesterday.
always just been a disembodied voice. It just pops up, sometimes when I least expect it. I'm not always sure what triggers it. Like yesterday. It used to be really loud and powerful. It would tell me I was fat, that I didn't deserve to be happy, and would cause me a lot of anxiety and start me spiraling down into destructive eating patterns.
Now I am starting to learn that it is just a stupid, silly voice. I'm getting much better at telling it to STFU (thanks, Roxie). It really has lost lots of its power.
Lately, I've been try to add a photo, or a picture or at least some little clip art to my posts so they are not just expanses of text. So yesterday, I was trying to find something to add. I ran across a little gremlin-ish creature, a crabby little guy with a big mouth. When I look at this little guy, I imagine his voice as squeaky (kind of like Gilbert Gottfried, if you know who that is). That describes the Voice in my head now. Not strong or really nasty...it's more annoying than scary, just a meddling ankle biter.
So, from now on, my posts which deal with the ED voice will feature Eddie (ED…Eddie…get it? ha ha, I'm so clever.) I think by putting a silly face to the Voice, it will continue to get even smaller and less powerful.
Now I am starting to learn that it is just a stupid, silly voice. I'm getting much better at telling it to STFU (thanks, Roxie). It really has lost lots of its power.
Lately, I've been try to add a photo, or a picture or at least some little clip art to my posts so they are not just expanses of text. So yesterday, I was trying to find something to add. I ran across a little gremlin-ish creature, a crabby little guy with a big mouth. When I look at this little guy, I imagine his voice as squeaky (kind of like Gilbert Gottfried, if you know who that is). That describes the Voice in my head now. Not strong or really nasty...it's more annoying than scary, just a meddling ankle biter.
So, from now on, my posts which deal with the ED voice will feature Eddie (ED…Eddie…get it? ha ha, I'm so clever.) I think by putting a silly face to the Voice, it will continue to get even smaller and less powerful.
The ED voice as Gilbert Gottfried is BRILLIANT! You've got the characterization down pat. Annoying - like that weird cousin who shows up at family reunions. You have certainly shrunk that voice down to size. Brava!
ReplyDeletePerfect! I think you are on to something great. Pretty soon that little ankle biter will be dead and gone!
ReplyDeleteBy the way, after reading the entire title of the "4 Hour Body" I'm thinking that book is not for me. I have way more than "the last 10 pounds" to lose and no husband or boyfriend right now :)