A Much Better Day!

First of all, thank you for the comments on my last post. I'm feeling much better. Fortunately, I don't have to spend any more time in court in the immediate future. I'll have to go back as the trial progresses, but not right now.

Just to explain a bit (again, I'll need to continue to be a bit vague)…a few years ago, our department responded to a fully involved house fire. Later it turned out that the fire was set as a cover up for a multiple homicide (two women and two small children). Because of my job, I was very involved in the investigation. After 3-1/2 years, the trial is finally taking place, and it's been quite an emotional roller coaster. Some of the awful memories are returning with a vengeance. But we are all supporting one another and I'm so lucky...my co-workers are wonderful and I love them. There's definitely an attitude that we're all in this together, and we are doing whatever it takes to get the best outcome for this trial.

I also spent my last therapy session talking about it with Dr D ("talking" is a mild description). I've been imagining what those poor scared little kids must have gone through. The thoughts have been very vivid and detailed, based on what I saw at the scene, and I just couldn't get my mind to slow down or be quiet. It was like a horror movie or nightmare that kept repeating over and over.

Anyway, I'm much better today. I seem to be back on track emotionally and my eating and exercise have been much better. It really does help to talk things out... I'm starting to understand that keeping painful experiences locked up inside definitely contributes to eating disorders...or at least to disordered eating.

It was a beautiful day today, so I took B for a walk. Because he still limps quite bit (from the elbow dysplasia...poor baby), he started to balk after about a half hour. So at that point, we came home and I did another 40 minutes on the treadmill, which felt great. The rest of the afternoon, we were just lazy, and it was lovely. Then hub and I went to 5 o'clock mass this evening, and afterwards we had dinner at a new Korean barbeque place, which was really good (and relatively healthy...mostly protein and veggies). Right now we're watching a movie that hub recorded, but honestly...I'm about ready to crash. All in all, a perfect weekend so far.

So, I hope everyone is having a great weekend...Thanks again for your support.